so even though i've been thinking about marriage for quite a while now, and even known who i'm going to marry for about a year, it's just now beginning to hit me. yes i knew i'm marrying beth and yes i thought long about that decision to make sure i wanted it before i made it. i knew all along i was making a life-long decision in choosing my wife.
but it is only just recently starting to actually sink in. and wow, it's surprising and slightly unsettling. not that i'm questioning my decision or anything, but just that it is only beginning to really hit me the enormity of my choice. it's like rappelling, and stopping just over the edge to look down: you're having a ton of fun, but you can still get a touch of vertigo. lol.
it is amazing (no matter how many times i've said it to myself or to beth already) to truly, deeply, intimately realise that yes, i really do get to wake up every morning for the rest of my life (starting august 19th) to see her face. :-)
it's almost like losing a family member...except in reverse (cuz it's good, duh). but the same feeling of realisation applies: you can logically know that your brother (or sister, or mother, or uncle, or whomever) is dead, but it still takes you a while to truly KNOW it and understand it and even admit it. same kind of thing here (except, like i said, the emotions are good instead of bad) that yes i've thought about it, planned for it, longed for it. but only now am i truly beginning to understand what it means. and every time i realise something new, it makes me wish for that day to come even sooner. :-)
maybe that's how we should all view heaven, as well...
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ummm... so ... it *is* a good thing, right?
yes of course it's a good thing! didn't i keep repeating that it's a good thing? i'm sure i said that repeatedly in the post...
Well written article.
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